| Reminiscing...
i went t0 this particuLar site, www.xanga.com/xanga_music, 'cause i was seaching f0r a s0ng 2 put in my xanga page.. as i was scrolling, i saw this title "dance with my father" by Luther vandr0ss.. i was curi0us ab0ut what the s0ng s0unded Like s0 i cLicked it.. i Listened t0 it 4 a whiLe.. then i reaLized, tears started t0 fall d0wn my cheeks.. i was really moved by the s0ng..
a Little hist0ry..
i never g0t a chance t0 spend reaL quaLity time with my dad.. he Left me & my m0m when i was still 2 years 0Ld.. i really don't kn0w the reas0n behind it.. when i was LittLe, i used t0 ask my m0m where my dad is & why he's g0ne.. but my m0m refused t0 answer.. i asked her f0r quite s0me time.. but then i g0t tired 0f asking her cuz she never really wanted t0 tell me anything ab0ut him.. & i reaLized that, what the heck, he's really g0ne.. & he's never c0ming back.. i keep asking myseLf, why did he Leave me? he d0esn't wanna kn0w me.. 0r s0mething Like that.. but he wr0te t0 me f0r Like 3 times when i was 7.. but i 0nLy g0t the chance t0 read th0se Letters when i was Like 11 or 12, i'm n0t sure.. the p0int is, i never w0uLd have read it if i haven't f0und it in 0ne 0f my m0m's oLd drawers.. i never intented t0 Lo0k f0r it.. but i f0und it, just Like that! it was hidden fr0m me!!! Like my m0m d0esn't wanna Let me read it.. up0n reading the Letters 0ne by 0ne, i was crying and at the same time mad at my m0m f0r n0t Letting me read th0se Letters when my dad sent it 2 me.. grrr! i still have th0se Letters with me.. i read it every n0w & then when i think ab0ut him..
anyways.. if y0u wanna kn0w what s0ng i'm talking ab0ut, here is the Lyrics..
Back when I was a child
before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying to dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream
i aLways pray that i will see him s0meday.. & Live the Life that i never had.. a life with a dad by y0ur side.. 'cause i'm aLways jeaLous when i see my friends 0r c0usins with their dads.. having fun.. hugging.. i just smiLe when i see instances Like that.. but deep inside, i'm really sad.. 0h h0w i really wish he's here with me..
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i was with my c0usins & their b0yfriends & friends.. La kmi kasamang oLdies.. kya mas 0k! wahehehe..
